Tuesday, December 22, 2009

kl trip

i never expect that u will be at kl
i din purposely go kl to meet u or wat
frankly speaking, i just suddenly sense u will be at Kl so i call tting, the way she rejecting me also make me feel weird.
aiks

this is hurt that i am upstair while u at downstair but i cant c u or talk to u
well when i saw the photo in the fb aiks

anyway
i admit was a little bit upset when looking at those, but actually it is nothing la
because no reason for u not to do so
i really wish that ur new relationship can last and can be more xin fu ba

i still moving and wish to fly away, so i wont get hurt when c all these

the feeling is still there but because of the feeling, i get hurt
can i got the feeling and not get hurt?

=) really
jia you

just go monash borrow two books about frozen food, plan to study and tackle the prblm in company

shoudn't said more

when lonely, books is the best medcine

Sunday, December 6, 2009

one week in JB

well one week in JB
despite all the relationship prblm
but i try to counter it myself here

nth can be worst then this
well, i din cry this time

haha
i noe u will do this, but never think u will do this to me right after ur semester
despite all the hard work i put on u, it sill have the worst outcome
i just can only blame myself for being not good enough
i wonder how u feel ?
XD

u still the same
no change
aiks

haha
for me although i hate alone and lonely
at JB, wat also solo
first time solo kfc, solo nando
more ? perhaps
buy some books to read
spend whole day at secret recipie at jusco

I never stop learning u noe
haha
although u block the road
but i still on my path to grow

well
there are some message i want to pass to u
thats y i try to contact u
but seems u just treat it as irritant

nevermind
i ask he ma help le, hope he can deliver my msg properly

well, this is life
and also prove that how mightly the love is
u must be weird y i will buy cloth
i noe u will not wear in front of me and thats not my purpose to
i just one u to look prettier and continue shinning and move ahead
the ji jing just one u to recover from the tiredness of the exam

i seriously din demand much le
although i noe u loved somebody, i also willing to help u
yea, they said i care so much, they said i sohai
just, i dont one to c u suffer
well, dont think got chance for me to help u
but still
me here still open 24/7

i still moving really
get used of new environment,
u never noe how much effort i need to survive here with limited fren and resource

haha
i still tough and strong
i serious din cry when i found out that u got a new one

=) bear with it
and i going open a public blog

http://jjlam88.blogspot.com/

hahaha
here is only the place i put when i miss u

i din update for so long time
because working is tired from 7am to 6pm
but i never work or zzz while working
i am concentrating watever i can

i think tell u i update is useless, just hope that u got the mood to come in read ba

i dont ask for return,
i just do things no regret
hahaha

Monday, November 30, 2009

happy birthday

happy birthday !!!
haha
i give u a present
u accidentally also give me a present

hahaha
thx
........

well bck to topic
today is ur birthday
concentrate on ur paper ba

one of the world most hurtfull thing is u c the one u love is in love with others

well this is life,
brace with it

jj u can

anyway hope u hv best of luck and have a smooth journey

i will still, concentrate whatever i can

frankly speaking
i really can live well and do my stuff, i can control
but just i cant have the one i love the most only

happy birthday

Sunday, November 29, 2009

well JB

that is such a long time i din update my blog
no because i am lazy or wat
i simply just feel lost
and sad

and also damn 7 busy
finally now i can feel freeness and with internet access

haha
too free go look around
just saw u deleted the photo

haha
and then one eye i stare at the present i prepare for u
well
life is really joking me
hahahahahaha

what ar e u thinking while u delete the photo?
i wonder
so fast ready to jump in le ma?

wish u good luck
really
nth i can do
haigh
i am tired

really feel to screw u a lot
really unexpected u will do so many weird things
haigh
wish u can grow up and think more ba
really
think more
more complete

i noe u will going to dislike wat i type
bt thats wat i feel from u
and wat i can c from wat u did and wat u said

haha
maybe not much
bt i really observe adn think

no matter who ask me
do i love u?
i definetly will ans
i love u a lot
really
hahaa

bt i calming myself down a lot
holding the feeling
stay bck
watching u from the bck

haha
infact i din bring the book to jb
i just bring one photo only
haha
i wanna control my feeling and my thinking
i want to make myself think more and better
but i cant make myself dont get heartbreak

this is life, bear with it

Sunday, November 15, 2009

wat i can do?

argh!!!
so many things in my mind
so many misunderstanding
haigh
tell me? how i going to tell u?

Friday, November 13, 2009

他对感情无怨无悔

如果他曾经有过刻骨铭心的感情经历,并为此真心付出过,那么至少可以证明他是个深情,敢于承诺的男人。一个愿意为感情破裂分担部分责任的男人。
“专一”的定义并非是他只能一生爱一人,而是每爱一个人的时候他都一心一意.
一个男人一辈子注定会有多少次恋爱,他在不断的实践中获得经验让自己完善起来

Thursday, November 12, 2009

thats it

broken heart.......

update when i got time

i still need more time to figure out my mind

sry too messy cant type out

i got a very weird habit

when i face relationship issue

i tend to no need to eat one

qi sin de

good can be thinner

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

haigh 2

Argh~
today whole day foul mood
part is by the usual reason
but the prblm is the paper, usually i can wrote very fast in exam paper, normal i can finish a paper within two hours time
but this paper really tough
walau
so many blank
i seat on chair for 3 hours think think think try very hard to sequese all the info from my brain
I tried my best anyway
i have to admit that i din perpare well enough for this paper
haigh

anyway
thats all
i end my exam
nw is 'free time'
actually i quite hate lor
cause when nth to do
people tends to think a lot
my condition will be double worst
haigh

this is love
tried it, experience it
haha
i really can sure that no matter is who, next relatioship the gal will very fortune, cause i learned and will tried my best
really tried watever i manage to

haigh
dont look bck
dont look bck
dont..
stand up
look infront

self motivating

haigh
looking at the h1n1 make my brain blur
sry, not today
my brain need rest
tomolo ba

to u
chou ren
the power of love made me moved forward, but did it still can break the door
can u still trust me?
chance chance chance

haigh
anyway i need to control myself
past experience show that too desperate will only bring negative impact

anyway
i will jia you de
still
for u and myself

i still moving, so do u

Sunday, November 8, 2009

haigh

wat to do, can only haigh......
a lot of mind running / circulating around my brain
haigh

tomolo is my last paper
i really dont wish exam end so fast
haigh
give me more paper pls!!!!!!!

it is really heart broken moment for me
i noe wat to do, but just din have the motivation to do

i hate the feeling, really damn hate
damn damn damn damn hate,
really

However, the biggest storm still hvnt reach, but the pre-strom pain already striking me
now i am like a captain sailing with a broken boat to pass through the winter baltic sea !!!!!
(baltic sea, is notorious for the big storm , http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RFYDrYHIuZE )

All crew on deck, brace for impact!
damn u, u wont strike me down!!!

haha
this is call life, wat we call process of life =)
i admit that i was cry, but thats a good way to reduce stress. It help u to relieve from mental stress














ps: love is blind, u said it is very annoying; but this is love
i noe it is pain, i noe it is hard, but i still jump in
sa gua
the song actually quite suit also.
love is pain, no love no pain.


ps2: i wonder, what is in ur real mind when u are lonely?
perhaps i need to cut down the portion of u in my brain, so that i can be less annoying, but still
i love u so much

i stil the one, dont like to said love when i dont mean it. I still the one dont like to promise whatever i cant make it.

However i stil breaking promise, i told you i wont love u because u are in singapre, anyway thats really a joke now

hahaha

Friday, November 6, 2009

exam period

Exam period, not free to renew my blog as....
i wish to type a lot here
but no time,
stressing on work everyday

however, i also can feel some changes from ur site
this really can make me think a lot
i anyway with u close all the info and not free to let me gain info
it is really getting tough to get close to u
anyway it is never easier too

what is in ur mind? i wonder
really
wat i can do?
time is running short
i will be in JB real soon, really vey soon
in fact i quite sked also
wat if wat i found is the worst senario in my mind ?

i sincerely wish that wat i think is wrong...
wish i am still in ur mind, watever is it
love me is not turning bck, it is another journey, i will make it a best journey....

haigh, the mistake i did, it carries the effect till now
i am getting the pain since the day until now, every moment when i tot of it, it still a great heart pain,
haha, anyway i wil do more self improvement, thats why i can only do and should do
for you and for myself..

haha
i dont one to beg u to accept me, that is meaningless
just want u to spent sometime to think what i did for u
and wat others can give for u
wat i had and others

really
calm down and think
watch ur step carefully
i didn't, thats wat i having now
anyway good also, this gave me chance to really cherish u

in conclusion,
i really love u, i really hope can access to ur heart.
mine heart same as your, fragile and break easily..
really easily

ps: i really acknowledge that u are hype busy in ur study, however same case here

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Exam period yet trouble kept on striking

Study study study
exam exam exam

my usual life now

however bad news still striking, although it din directly involve me but yet it hurting ppl
anyway
must stand strong and concentrate on study

tired
my tou pi seem reddish
aiks
very unhealthy

hope u did read my letter
hahaha
i will kept on jia you de
as usual and the promise

Friday, October 23, 2009

wat is love?

愛情是愛著的人真心實意的付出,未必能發展為婚姻


追求一個人是艱難的嘗試和值得深思的行動,是要有智慧和緣分的


愛情給聰明的人一路綠燈。給有緣分的人,特別神靈


愛情要有自知之明,不可追求太高,得符合自己的實際


不然,追不上不說,還落的黯然傷神,自討沒趣


愛情也不是越深就越好,因為人畢竟也有親情和友情


在愛情方面投入的太多,會淡化對親人的愛,朋友的愛


畢竟,值得一個人愛的還有很多



anyway i still love u so much hope i am still shining and warm ur heart

Monday, October 19, 2009

exhausting non stop chaos

damn it
really damn 7 lin dulan
now i give u second chance, if u still dont take good care
god bless u

u think i scare u hit me, if u do u doom

ji dan gao

haigh really
angry angry angry angry angry angry





...............
hope u all right
will need to concentrate on exam soon

times fly
i wont cross the line
bt i do hope by hardworking wont fall into big sea
i love u

Monday, October 12, 2009

tired tired tired tired

walau just zz for whole afternoon then after dinner will stuck into another war jor
really stress lor
haha
bt i will try my best no matter
pls see this video, only take a few minutes bt i think it is meaningfull =)

the tittle of the video is

有些事,一转身就是一辈子




Enjoy pls play it, maybe we can get another fellow bt will he and she treat us with full heart?
will cherish serious, anyway cherish means not tide neck. cherish is on the basis of love and trust.

this video is for me as well

haigh, love
the major prblm i face nw is focusing power
i must focue more, one thing in one time......
hope u can fly higher and shinning
i will always around ~

pick u up if u fall...
i am very gratefull if can accompany u

time fly~ wat i can do in future ? really need to plan and think about it

nw is headache blur and tired
lonely
...... hope the day will come
the happy day =)

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Some photo for sharing =)

Just upload some of the photo from the hp, those are very memorable one^^

The concentrating powder, thx for cheering me up =) really really appreciate and grateful ^^ will try my best to concentrate


Miss u so much in the hospital, the photo accompany me for my days

The bus stop at ntu de, the memorable place too. the breaking point.


the pain experience =(



Cute you ^^ i miss u

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

我只是想要幸福



因为世界有个你 给我呼吸的勇气

就算泪光模糊了一切 在我心中依然美丽

生命最美的奇迹 原来就是与你相遇

是你握住我手心 去面对风和雨

把结局交给上帝决定

我只是想要幸福 用一生努力追逐

让星光带路 不管多无助

每一步都铭心刻骨

我只是想要幸福 为了爱不怕豪赌

我不会认输 我不愿让步

守在你身边再多苦我都已满足

生命最美的奇迹 原来就是与你相遇

是你握住我手心 去面对风和雨

把结局交给上帝决定

我只是想要幸福 用一生努力追逐

让星光带路 不管多无助

每一步都铭心刻骨

我只是想要幸福 为了爱不怕豪赌

我不会认输 我不愿让步

守在你身边再多苦我都已满足

我只是想要幸福 用一生努力追逐

让星光带路 不管多无助

每一步都铭心刻骨

我只是想要幸福 为了爱不怕豪赌

我不会认输 我不愿让步

守在你身边再多苦我都已满足

守在你身边再多苦我都已满足

Monday, October 5, 2009

看不到终点的路

hmm
near end of the semester tones of work pending and surrounding me
but bad news never stop
haigh ya
i really need to listen to my mum, put the leaf in my valet hope it help

i told those two pity gal
faster decide ur choice
then bear with it

like me
there are tones of heart breaking moment
anyway, if i succeed i will be the happiest men in the world

bt if i avoid to persuade others
maybe i will be happier
but the torn will bring me to whole life

all is about choices
anyway
no matter what
i still kept on standing the pressure and the hurtness
withstand the feeling i missing somebody
withstand the cold wind blow from south

there is no end in this road, even i succeed a lot more still need to accomplish because more i can do that time. haha
anyway
时间及诚意 are the most powerful weapon i have, without that i donno what i can do le

jia you
and move on
if i move on, i can be a warm sun
shinning everyone including ur heart
hope i can open the door
anyway my door is always open for u

To you, JIA YOU in ur paper o
haha
actually i read all ur notes jor
if u got prblm just ask me
hope my little things can help
no need worried too much everything will be fine
stay healthier
hope i din bother u too much


ps: i am hunting for the key

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Another accident

OMG
y ? happen to me ?
there are so so so so so many things happened on me and bombarding my life
i must bear with it
my body is recovering bt in a slow scale
hope it can get well soon

amithaba john, we will always beside u

dear master pls , if can love me more
my life getting more and more tension
it is harder everyday

jia you
to another height of the mountain

Monday, September 28, 2009

Out from the hospital but not yet out from the hell

sry for not being update for such a long time
i din dump here
was hospitalize
ben dan mosquito~~
although i get out le
bt my throat still pain till~~~~~~~~
wuah
pain pain pain

haigh
at hospital really boring lor
miss u so much
bt thx the caring u gv i appretiate that =)

holiday come
bt my busyness just start
rock and roll
wish can c u soon...

Saturday, September 19, 2009

Wah cc

This is the first time i am in the cc in this sem
cc, really long time din come here jor
long long time
i only will come here when i do not have internet at home (yes the damn maxis BROADband nw is SLOWER then a 56K DIAL up, load GOOGLE for FIVE minutes)
haha

y i dont one come to cc?
donno since when, at cc i feel emptyness
it is such a waste time
dota i play from 3xx to 6xx bt my skill level is the same
haha

waiting to go home but heavy rain nw
this add bonus mark to my emoness
anyway life still on
just some bad dream when stop me to go forward
no matter wat happen
i will still breathing and move in front

was attend a talk about working in sg
www.contactsingapore.sg
is the gov agency responsible for the talk
i gain quite a lot of usefull information there
wish it can help me in my future career
haha

exam is near
assignment week is near
haha
so siok
i must bear with it
hope can get more strength to accomplish this complicated stuff !!

jia you
really tired
zzz whole day also not enough
always cry in the dream, really *weird*
anyway
when wake up will be a fresh new day waiting for me
i will kept my promise always


missing u

Thursday, September 17, 2009

JJ story telling time

Walau malaysia F1,
kanasai eh

i really dont understand why they one this ?
the experience of buying agusta forget le ma?
a lot of money ah?
CB gov , one malaysia equal to Formula one?
i noe both also got one
but it is not same right?

u better spend money to improve our education, paid more to the teacher
why wanna waste money for naza, proton to develop F1 ?
and naza do not have its own brand or designer team
got F1 team then got technique?
zzz
u think is india power meh
ppl rich ma, altought only SIXTY million(rough figure) ppl starving in india but still got money for F1 and aircract carrier

One Malaysia is not equal to Formula One

haigh
sure GG i con lan firm
this will not last long
idiot gov

钱要花在刀口上

tired eh

exhausted and tired
donno when the turning point will come
when can u treat me better ?

haigh
in fact really nth much can do nw
wish to do a lot of things
but i noe really not much things i can do
in fact do too much will get negative feed back
but if i did nthing the feeling will just fade more

this really tough
and i noe the situation is kinda hopeless
really wish i can catch up the turning point

headache
wish can come bck my mood to do work

Monday, September 14, 2009

new phrase from GTO ^^

GTO where my idea come from, when i stress i always read this comic
it always help me when i am down =)

this the phrase i learned
"放轻松些, 凡是别太执著. 放开心胸往前走.皱着眉头依事无补. 让那条鱼看到吃次不到, 你越消沉她越得逞.否则如何前进呢? 才刚刚start leh
haha
ok la i will try to achieve this phrase

王力宏 - 爱的就是你

thx sam, this song also sing out my voice




失去才会懂得珍惜
但我珍惜你
伤越痛就是爱越深
我不相信
你和我同时停止呼吸
每一次我们靠近
你让我忘了困惑
忘了所有烦心
我把你紧紧拥入怀里
捧你在我手心
谁叫我真的爱的就是你
在爱的纯净世界
你就是我唯一
永远永远不要怀疑
我把你当作我的空气
如此形影不离
我大声说我爱的就是你
在爱的幸福国度
你就是我唯一
我唯一爱的就是你
我真的爱的就是你
oh~~~~~oh~~~~~
就是你~~~~~yeah~~~~~~
唯一爱的就是你
爱的就是你

hope u can c this and few me
haha
feel like listen to ur laugh, c ur face but
looks i annoy u a lot
haigh
anyway jia you ba

Saturday, September 12, 2009

Sorry, i love u

walau, this song! must play must play o ~ pls pls



沒別的 只想說對不起 對不起 我真的愛你
不管你會怎麼想 你怎麼說 也不會改變我的決定

你知道 有時候感情事很難說 很難說 愛人或朋友
從前到現在我真的感覺要 一想你 我的心就發燒

想給你聽我的心跳 想你知道我睡的不好
喝水想著你 搭車想著你 闔眼閉眼間 出現的全是你
我猜不到你的表情 我等不到你的回應
不想難為你 又不想放棄你 決定告訴你
對不起對不起 我愛你

沒別的 只想說對不起 怎麼樣 我都會珍惜
不管你會怎麼講 你怎麼做 也不會影響我的心情

你知道 有時候男孩更難捉摸 難捉摸 愛人或朋友
現在到永遠我真會感覺要 一想你 我的心就狂跳

我的模樣記不記得牢 情人卡有沒有收到
讀書想著你 聽歌想著你 大地和藍天 出現的全是你
我才不管你的表情 我才不理你回不回應
不想難為你 又不想放棄你 決定告訴你
對不起對不起 我愛你

你聽一聽我的心跳 你看一看我睡的不好
喝水想著你 搭車想見你 闔眼閉眼間 出現的全是你
我猜不著你的表情 我等不到你的回應
不想難為你 又不想放棄你 決定告訴你
對不起對不起 我愛你

recently love to listen to youtube and watch the mv
weirdly i was reading the lyric, this was never done before
haha i wanna to understand the feeling of the song
the wording, the feel before that i moer focus the background music, the rhythim
细心 去感受 去体会 他的辛苦 你的努力
every words is wat i feel wat i think, so no need bold ba
haha
sorry but i really love u

Friday, September 11, 2009

feeling sick

ji dan gao
tired, headache, nose pain, stomach kosong
still need to face the ben dan gc
haigh

really need to drink some chicken essense
haha

must take care myself , if not how to take care others ppl?

jia you JJ
steady~
walk to the future

Tuesday, September 8, 2009

Grateful 感恩

dear readers, was bck from singapore at yesterday nighe with AK 716
i am damn dizzy nw
in fact, few days of singapore trip is making me and u very tired

anyway
got few ppl ask me jor, how is ur trip? good news or bad news?
how to said leh
got good, got bad ba, will update later.

Well,
need to thank few ppls here
thx samantha for lending me ezi link card and trip suggestion.
thx sam for let me overnight in your place, trip suggestion and listen to me.
thx yik long help me iron my cloth and fetch me to lcct.
thx ah mao for giving me support all the way.
thx shi jing to let me zz in ur house.
thx meiying to let me work with her so i can hv enough money to sg.
thx cai yue lending me credit card to buy airport ticket.
thx he ma help me prepare present and the suggestion is fabulous.
thx weigo to allow me to delay gv him the rental.
thx tting, tehbing, hanwen, ikhur, he ma for listen to me when i am in trouble.

You guys really help me a lot and accompany me throughout the process of preparing.

thx yik chee kor kor for accompany me in changi, guiding me to correct place. ur advice, ur suggestion, i will remember in heart.
thx john kor kor for comfort me in jb, ur teaching, ur advice, ur help, ur support. I will remember in heart too.
thx my parents to allow me to go sg(although they forget jor). Sorry daddy and mummy to make u worried about me.

thx u guys u guys are fabulous, without u all, i cant go to singapore and bck safety ^^
glad to have u guys as my fren and relative.

Lastly to a very special person to me, swit wei
with ur help,
i noe people around u, i noe where u often hang out and study, i noe how to go ur hall,
i noe ur condition there, i noe ur happiness there, i noe ur life cycle there, i noe how ur lectuer conduct, i noe how u present ur homework...
thx for trying hard not to hurt me, arrange my accommodation, borrow me ur water bottle, borrow me the jacket, let me use ur labtop, teach me how to wash face...
thx for take care the stuff i gave u, thx for thinking about my emotion, thx for worried my condition.
there are still a lot of things i need to said thank you to u. one of the most important thing is, u allow me going to look for u and the companion, this is the core of everything...

dear master, i love u so much..

Friday, September 4, 2009

Pre depature

Well still got another 10 minute then i will departure liao
wish everything all right and fine

this trip is very important for me
it will become a turning point in my life

ha
JJ gambatae
show what u got
SAI LANG la

^^
thx for those helping me
really a lot
no matter what the result i still need to thx u all
love u all so much

well
bon voyage
c u all very soon

Tuesday, September 1, 2009

Count down

OK
start to get the preparation for the weekend event jor
later will need to go shop some stuff
then need to cut my hair too
just spoken to lecturer to change my lab time to thursday
trying to finish one of my assignment due next week

anyway those are the only physically preparation

i will prepare myself mentally with 务实的心去见你

wait me there o

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Mirror, trust

I need a mirror, to let me c wat am i doing and thinking
To see myself,
I too negative
I really think too much
must calm down and believe
trust

I make myself at the center, I should jump out of the circle and think about u more
haigh
hope i din get u pis st off
i underestimate ur workload le

i really naive

So sry dear master
I really thinking too much

I wil change to view more see more and think NECESSARY stuff
I will catching up with my homework
I promise

Love ya
我需要更多发现爱的眼睛

Saturday, August 29, 2009

apologize and forgive , 等待爱

Play this song while u read this post =)



By comparing the way u treat between this week and last week
i think that
u still angry me
u really busy this week

haha
last week u tell me can this can that
but now different geh

anyway i must not blame u
for doing that to me

i did the mistake but still wanna tell u
because i appreciate u, i cherish u
i do not one to lie, because if i lie to u, i believe that the trust i lost will be 100 times more and will lose u forever

for u, i think about future, i invest for our future, pls let the value rise, if not will economic crisis de

i do that wrong thing, because i wanna read the funny thing u mention to me
at that moment i am curious and din think too much that time
ya, then i noe i am wrong
i told u why i did and now i have to wait until u ready to forgive me

anyway i still appretiate u because at this condition u still can talk to me and chat to me(although not much)

it is not an easy thing for both of us
to apologize and to forgive
i apologize that i know u will in serious anger and dislike
u forgive that u know this is a serious act that cross your barrier

frankly, i really worried about next sg trip
i worried i will end up zzz on the street or swimming in the sg river
but one thing i sure is
我将会带来更大的惊喜及感动

i noe u are busy
but that are a lot of way of sending a concern and care which is not time consuming

i can wait
sometime i speak abit too rough cause i really need u that moment, sry for that (sometime siao bai also will also wow right? hehe^^ )
i love u so much
dear master

ps:without food da bai now wanna become siao bai jor. ToT
and i fully responsible for watever i did to u

Friday, August 28, 2009

I pass my hell week

Yea, i just pass my hell weak
which is 4 assignments due one week

this year is el nino time, malaysia should be hot and dry
but donno why this few day night sure got rain and is very cold
every night i need to cover myself with blanket to warm me up
sometime really cold till cant type word zzzzz

must ask yik long come out blow some smoke to warm me up
(use of smoke, kept warm)(dear reader: i still a non smoker, just need the warm air to warm myself up only)
@ @


thx him for given me a couples of advice and the smoke really warm me up, it make me can continue to do my work again

haha

the terminal at the end of another internet port so cold and busy as well
this add bonus point to my coldness
LOL

really need to get warmed
physically and mentally
我想要一个灿烂的笑容^^
来温暖我的心
对你, 我一定抱着最大的热情及温柔

next week work
annotated bibliography and recom assignment
jia you
stand up
JJ
concentrate on stuff that u can manage to

i thinking about this recently
What is apologize?
it's an expression of remorse or guilt over having said or done something that is acknowledged to be hurtful or damaging, and a request for forgiveness

How to apologize?
Step 1: be sincere sorry
Step 2: realize u did a very bad thing
Step 3: realize there is no excuse, excuse is not an apologize
Step 4: apologize by naming the offense u did
Step 5: make amends
Step 6: express ur appreciation if kena reject, be patience (repeat step 1 to5). or gratefull if lucky enough if get forgived.
Step 7: DONT REPEAT THE MISTAKE

ps: recently my only time i feel relax is only when i chat to u.

i reread the GTO again, will not forget the lessons inside again

在每一个有你相伴的夜,不再寂寥冷清^^

i am COLD

我需要根多的温暖好吗?
我真的很冷
从外到心

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Critical error

Haigh
why i always do stupid and wrong thingy de leh
at this critical time and always too

Really have to back to the ground where I suppose to
我要为我所造成的结果负责。

chance just like glass
must take care it with heart
just a little bit of careless (i noe is not little bit)
will brake the heart

要好好地把握机会
with heart to think for every aspect, every small small detail

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

wat i accomplished wat i do not this few days

i finish working
i finish visiting my relative in kl
i finish looking for info to sg
i finish recon and lab hw

pending job
recon DNA assignment
lab report
sci presentation

hoho

this weekend will go bck langkap
hope can solve my passport thingy next week
then can straigh purchase air ticket jor

decide to go sg by air ticket
faster to reach u
save time/ save $ too

nw wanna do homework
next monday got major assignment due
must do fast
jia you o
JJ

Saturday, August 15, 2009

天有不测之风云, 人有旦夕祸福

this is a tragedy
this the first time my worrying is diverted to a more more more gan jiong geh stuff

haigh~
nw can only pray
everything to be move smoothly

we must cherish everyone around
cause we donno what will happen tomorrow?
maybe a plane will crash down?
maybe the light bulb will fall on ur hear?

WHO NOE?

cherish everyonearound u

this tragedy make me love u more

btw thx for the help which help me gone through this

however
the battle just start

lets pray
南无阿弥驼佛

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Chill down, confident, patience and TRUST

I believe that i am putting more stress to myself then to u
the tiredness, the stressness of working and homework
the nervous, scary, worried, sadness
i cant find u, i din get ur rply, i so miss u, the feeling of loving u
i cant express on u, i cant find u frequent, i cant call u and i cant see u
so i change those force to pressurize myself
i storing all the pressure in my heart
so just now i noe i too xin ji
pls forgive me
pls pls pls
i will be more patience from nw on
i very understand u are busy, fan, just like me in monash
i totally understand ur busyness in making new fren, settle room, buy this, arrange this, get used to new environment
bt i do not have so much activity la
XD
when scl start i predict u will only become busier then nw
studying, discuss lab report,endless assignmentsss, finding study partner,school activity, making new fren, going out to walk walk, endless due date,project bla bla bla bla
tones of thinggs are waiting u to accomplish
but i really need a small small help to release my pressurize gas
this will help me to walk further
no need to talk to me long
no need to frequent sms me
just ur smile when skypee me
just ur some basic concern will do
and i always available to help u
when u need me
wish i can accompany u walk this though journey

family u and study are my most priority thing

come 123
deep breath
come again
deep breath
lai good
deep breath

hahaha
smile =)

trust
believe
patience
confident

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (gas release sound)
release gas
ha


change negative force to positive
change impossible to possible
change urself
change other ppl
believe ur strength
show them wat ur capable of

YES
I am JJ ^^
must learn patience TODAY and FOREVER
i also promise that wont force myself and u too

the day will come
I believe
where i fall i shall rise

ps: u are making me more miss u
if u can spare some time with me,
maybe will be better?
since i can more understand ur live nw
then less worried
but i noe now u still busy
take ur time ma
XD
i dont mind waiting
da ben dan

dont dump dog on the street
very pity de
pls feed them with care and with love
^^

OK now continue doing DNA recombinent essay

I miss u and love u too
good nite=)
where my love can reach u

Monday, August 10, 2009

You are my Everything

Instruction before read: Please play the video while u read this
u can pause the song in my blog^^ pls continue it later o



故事裡的 起承轉合 有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇

原來波折 才暗示著 該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻

就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際 求和相遇 有多少機率
多少煙火 墜落無痕跡

因為幸福 沒有捷徑 難免要繞道
不被看好 越是要走到

就算別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因 我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

self motivate

this is the second day i am working
this job is bored
XD
anyway it is quite well paid and not vry tough job
need to work from 6pm to 4 am
zz
then wake up need to do homework jor
Tuesday due DNArecombinent assignment table + essay

recent me


need a motive force to push me to the target
bt my mind always get disturbed
心如乱麻 越理更乱

i rally understand this phrase nw
即陷情丝 越陷越深

really need something to calm myself down
dont force too much
calm down calm down calm down
she will be there if she one to be there
scare and worried is useless

patience
concentrate ur job
concentrate ur work
cheers up

stand up and wake up
where i fall i shall rise!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha

Thursday, August 6, 2009

waiting and patience

waiting patience waiting patience waiting patience
hmm~
thats wat i need

wish u can contact me when u free
i always there ~ unless lab

Monday, August 3, 2009

well thats it

Home again
XD yesterday really a siao nite
but i did try my very best for you
anyway
although it is not the best scenario bt it isn't that bad either

haha
time passing very fast, since we resume normal conversation it is about one the month thingg
bt a lof of things i did were either rare or i nvr did before
haha

i did watever i can
bt a lot of things are not going very smooth
my planning skill still not good and yet to be improved

nw u at sg bor jor
haha
i choose to trust u and belive in u
bt wat is most importance is i will respect, analyze and listen to ur opinion and ur words

hope this can maintain our currently erm how to said, 'dog and master' relationship. rise and drop depends on the future le

no matter wat, changes is a must although it is not a easy task but think carefully it is not that hard
when u do thing think more, do more and concentrate more
thats it
so easy

haha
i really miss u nw bt i donno how to contact u
bt i noe u ar in a vry busy mood
maybe cleaning room ?
briefing?
or stuck in sg traffic service
anyway
i got faith on u

to be a dog, one of the importance rule is loyalty
i will not eat other aunthy geh meat bone no matter how starve i am
so pls, sayang me and feed me with mum mum
ok?

love u so much
miss u a lot

time to bck to study
haha
maybe go bck langkap this weekend?
long time no bck le
miss home
go ipoh so much time bt din bck home
i really a bad son
daddy, mummy sry bt i noe u all will support me to do this
mum u told me u like swit wei a lot right?
me too
and i am looking forward with it

pls bear with me
we walk together ba
for the future
a better day will come so do our relationship

Thursday, July 30, 2009

thuesday nite

in fact everytime i go to ipoh
i quite scared and sad
means it is close to when u left me

haigh~

donno how to type out the feeling

bt i really need to control my emotion/feeling

just prepare all the necessary material for the present
bt need to design the way to deliver it
=)
i will more shi xin in doing things
including this weekend stuff
wait my surprise

i do this just wanna express my love towards
hope u can feel that a bit changing is occur in me

haigh
lol
ask to smile
stop my emoness jor
XD
actually y my blog so emo a?
haigh







really wish to bck to always geh me
the laughing and happy JJ

I miss u
I wish to have more MUM MUM ^^

Monday, July 27, 2009

bck from ipoh

just gao dim moving hse stuff
today really tired
ji dan gao
@@

hmm~
how do i discuss the ipoh trip this time?
i can only said
i bck from the hell

really a nightmare
scarry
aiks
specially in friday nite
zzz

anyway
really wish things going well
although my present was rejected
hopefully i can gv it to u in another day

this 3 days really a lot of things happened
hope my choco work
cause i put my love in it =)

lazy to summarize the trip here cause i really tired nw
which u can do well
i miss u
chou ****

Friday, July 24, 2009

my weakneeesss

just nw go yam cha with he ma
talk talk talk talk talk
talk about u, sin ling, fren, money, work, study
wat also talk
suddenly we talk about weakness
he said i always do stuff vry hu yan
ask me do small small things i will forget too
then always gv jie kou that i am blur when i forget smth

nw i only realize and notice the phrase u send to me
用心去做好 每一件 该做,想做的事。
i been thinking this recently
of course i do whatever i can whatever i can reach for u
but is it really from my heart?
or is it just 3 minutes heat?

no wonder u will scared and worried

i am too

cause

i am and was do things ma ma hu hu, not giving enough attention

i noe i am wrong

i shall not repeating this

for those reading my blog ? can u all remind me?

i noe it is time consuming for somebody to change his bad habit
specially for somebody which dont listen to ppl like me

i will change and must change
to kept myself evolve to a better person
the theme of this blog and myself is change
in fact
change is one of the most popular word this year !!

XD


PLS gv me a chance, gv me some times, gv me bit patience

i will and have to CHANGE and do things listening things carefully and sincere


wei~
i need u

roller coaster

aiks
i think hor
throught out my study history from kindergarden to uni
this week was the hardest starting of my scl time

my heart just like roller coaster
going up and down
or just like in the hell
where bath in extremely hot or cold condition

ur every moment touch my heart
aiks
+ the monash thinggy
really make high non stop

the 1st sign of getting ur rply in msn or ans is call will normally indicate how u ar going to treat me today
in msn if is hmm? means is good mood
or is wat? then ji dan gao liao

in phone more obvious
the sound u and my call, the loudness also tell me ur feel today

aiks
roller coaster

i must stand strong
to make my feel consistance

miss u so much
=)
which can c u as soon as possible

Friday, July 17, 2009

The result and the path

well this is my result
biochem 60
bio process 64
food 64
microbiology 66

aiks
i try my best along the exam period
i can only said that
i must have more regularly study from nw on

yesterday i just release some of from stress from crying hard with the help of a cup o wine and beer

although the problem still there
bt i ady figure out some the path to go

this is wat i read from the web about she shou zuo
你若令她失望,她会不可挽回地离开,即使她的心在滴血,即使痛楚重得要压垮她的生命,她也绝不回头。
i noe i did hurt u
means
more effort i need
more hardworking i need
more time i need
more patience i need

bt since a direction there
i will work for it

i swear

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Here it is


here it is
my next semester war time

next sem will be the hell sem for me

i always complain this complain that about monash,
actually wat i 1 is more attention from you
i looks childish right?
i sked sked de
bt in my heart i ady bear with it

well anyway i will jia you de
for every reason
i will study well for next sem
i swear

can u gv me power and more attention pls?

Tuesday, July 14, 2009

summary the feeling after reading of the below two post

i really can feel the content is really touching me
cause i is explaining my situation
if i was read it, understand it before
i wont be so bad ba

Monday, July 13, 2009

another gemini

双子座(Gemini)

有很多的朋友,可是'看起来朋友很多,可是知心的没有几个'这句话很深刻的形容了双子。双子很能说话,他跟别人可以天南地北的聊,可以聊得很八卦,也会聊一些很严肃的话题。双子可以跟你聊很多东西,可是注意了,他都只是跟你聊一些不关自己的事。随便他跟你说些什么,可是跟自己有关的都只是些皮毛而已。比如,今天又有某个明星怎样怎样了;隔壁班有多少美女帅哥的。关于自己的事,他几乎是不说的,就算是说,也是说一些关于自己无关痛痒的事。当你想更进一步的了解双子,他会很自然的把话题给扯开。 对于自信的双子来说,他又同时很没有安全感,这是双子特有的矛盾。他喜欢把自己重重包围住,不让自己暴露。对于双子来说,如果在一个还不了解的人面前把自己暴露了,就等于让别人抓住了自己的把柄。这样就失去了一定的优势。当双子感到独孤悲伤时,只会一个人躲在房间里哭,或者一个人郁闷着。 双子也很怕被伤害,很多时候宁愿自己承受一切,也不愿别人抓住自己的把柄。所以久而久之也就养成了习惯。 双子基本上也是个很痛苦的人。表面上总是很有活力,很快乐的样子,可是没人的时候他又总是很忧伤。双子总会被一种莫名的悲伤笼罩。但他不会让别人发现的,他怕被伤害,也怕被别人抛弃,只能自己硬挺着一切。所以双子很神经质,精神脆弱,容易人格分裂,因为承受了太多的东西. 一般来说双子的孩子都很早熟。双子对很多的东西都在乎得要命,可是表面上就是看起来什么都不在乎。双子并不是故意要掩饰自己,上面说了,这只是一种习惯了,可是在外人看来他就成了虚伪的人。 双子是被公认的最花心、最冷酷无情的星座。其实对于双子的花心,真的不想再说些什么了。解释得太多,累了,也没耐心了。可是说起双子,就不得不提感情,双子这一生,似乎必须被感情牵伴,跟爱情纠缠一世。很多人说双子并不花心,只是博爱,所以才会有那么好的人缘。忘了在哪里看见了这样的一句话:双子最大的悲哀在于有两个人的思想,却只有一个人的身体,双子有爱自己所爱的人的权利,也有保护彼此所爱的人的义务,双子只剩下一个时,爱也就只剩下义务了。 我想用如来若去说的一句话给双子的花心做个总结:花心的极端就是痴心的可怕。该懂的人应该会懂的。至于冷酷无情真的不知道该从何说起。其实双子是最平和的星座,如果可以不发生冲突,都会尽量避免。双子也很少跟别人吵架,他讨厌吵架,如果是因为一些生活琐碎小事吵架,那么双子就在吵完的那一刻就把这件事给忘了; 要双子真的跟你翻脸,除非是你的所作所为或所说的话实在让双子不能忍受,这时他会很鄙视得看你一眼,然后头也不回地走掉,甚至会不给你留面子地离开。这时你一辈子也别想再和他和好了,就算有的双子碍于面子和你再成为朋友,但是他们已经对你鄙视到了极点,只不过维持着这一层不得不维持的'朋友'关系其实,很大一部分双子,对待感情是非常专一的,之所以给人留下花心的美名,是因为很少有人能够让略带童心的双子动真感情,不是双子铁石心肠,而是双子个性里面天生有一些忧郁,一些潜在的不自信,只是双子隐藏的深入,可是一旦让双子动了真感情,那么恭喜你了,双子的天真,率直,外加表达能力丰富,一定能让你获得很多快乐。 每个双子都有一个故事隐藏在心里,多数是不堪回首的往事,双子是个念旧或者说是喜欢沉浸在回忆中的星座,他(她)的这个故事通常都是因情所困,动了感情而被伤害了的双子是脆弱的,也是坚强的,他(她)可以很快的振作起来,可以当什么事都没有发生,这些都是双子演给世人看的罢了,等到夜深人静的时候,双子内心的伤痛随着血液渗透到全身,他(她)可以一整夜的去回忆之前的点点滴滴,可以一整夜的沉浸在痛苦之中,可以一整夜坐在那里发呆,但是,一旦天亮了,要出去见人了,双子马上就从痛苦中抽身而走,你看到的肯定是一个神采奕奕的双子,这就是双子,拥有双重性格的双子,一个在世人面前乐天,快乐,在孤独夜晚独自伤悲的双子。 双子的爱是最永恒的,可以付出一切,有人说我们花心,那时我们没有真正的爱,当双子爱上一个人的时候是痛苦的,因为我们太敏感。假如双子爱上了一个不爱自己的人,那莫我相信他永远都不会再爱了,当爱给过了一个人,他再也没有能力再付出了,其实太多的人都不懂我们,其实连我们自己都不懂自己,我们很会伪装,很会说谎,但我们最细腻,对感情最敏感,双子的爱与悲伤,谁又真的了解!

this is damn true @ @

雙子星座的男人
田希仁
你小時侯一定很喜歡看魔術,或是湯姆歷險記,否則,你怎麼會跟一個「謎」樣的雙子座男人戀愛呢?
我們都不得不承認,他真的很可愛,腦子裡裝滿了千奇百怪的新鮮點子,談話中盡是幽默和機智。如果你在一個社交場合遇見他,你真的會很容易被他吸引,他總是妙語如珠的逗得大伙兒很開心。他的態度親切自然,一點都不給人壓迫感。從政治、人生,到黃色笑話,保證絕無冷場。跟他在一起真是有趣極了。但是:如果你是個佔有慾極強的女人,我勸你趁早死心吧!否則氣死自己是遲早的事。想要他每天一大早向你報告行程,讓你隨時找得到他,幾乎是不可能的。就算你事先知道他的行蹤,這一天當中也會有太多事情可能讓他改變原先的計劃。他是「雙子」座的!兩個腦袋加在一起,念頭當然會轉來轉去,讓人捉模不定囉!
他很可能昨天對你情話綿綿,今天卻好像沒有這麼一回事似的!如果你追求的是安全感,那你真的挺悲慘的。他的表現並不真的意味他不愛你了,很可能他只是暫時把心思放到別的事物上去了而已,。
如果你的反應是又哭又鬧,痛不欲生,那只會加速他離開你的腳步。告訴你一個故事,你可能不太相信,但我發誓這是千真萬確的:我有一位獅子座的女朋友,愛上了一個雙子座的男人。你知道獅子座的女人是很需要安定感的,而這位雙子座的男人從事的是旅遊業,經常帶團出國,有時侯一個星期,有時侯十天半個月。她只知道他出國了,「大概」什麼時侯回來,完全無法掌握他的行蹤。而他在台北的日子,有時侯表現的熱情如火,好像一分鐘也不願分開;有時侯又對我的朋友百般挑剔。每次他們吵架,不歡而散之後,我的朋友都以為一切結束了,可是過了幾天他又帶著鮮花登門造訪。
有一次他們起了很大的爭執,甚至大打出手。原因是他發現了其他的男生到我朋友家作客,我的朋友發誓再也不忍受他的神經質了。可是三天之後,他開始送鮮花,送情歌錄音帶,甚至哭著認錯,幾個招式交錯進行,終於又把那母獅子感動了,在他帶團到澳洲之前,他們甚至說好了,等他回來就談婚嫁。
然後呢?你一定不會相信,然後那個雙子座的男人居然不見了。打電話到家裡沒人接,打電話到公司再三查詢之下,才知道他決心留在澳洲讀書,暫時不回來了。我的朋友幾乎發瘋,相信換了你也會瘋掉。我們費了好大的精神,好長的時間,才讓他的心情平復過來。你知道嗎?半年多以後,那個男人居然回來了,而且若無其事的去找她。好像完全沒有意識到自己造成的傷害。我的朋友躲了好一陣子,深怕自己又被那個雙子座的男人哄回去。這個故事很離譜是不是?當然,不是每一個雙子座的男人都會這麼過份,但是他多變的行為,確實把雙子座的男人善變的個性表露無疑。從這個實例中,我們還可以發現雙子座男人的另一個特性,那就是當他真正墜入情網的時侯,他會故意做一些莫名其妙的事情,來掩飾他的真心,弄得對方一頭霧水。
總之;掌握他的心,和掌握他的行蹤一樣困難。
記得有一首歌,歌詞是這樣的——「風往何處從不說,留下空白線索。」沒錯!雙子座的男人就是風,想要抓到一陣風,那是你跟自己過不去。
你應該習慣而且欣賞他的多變、分享他每一個新奇的念頭、配合他廣泛的興趣,你們會把日子過得多采多姿。我有個朋友嫁了個個雙子座的老公,他的婚姻座右銘是「該我的就是我的,不是我的,留也留不住」,因此,她過得很開心,她甚至常以好玩的心情等待她雙子座老公的新花樣。千萬不要把所有的心思全放在他身上,這樣會讓他覺得壓力很大,而你自己也很痛苦。
你可以盡量去發展自己的潛力和事業,不必害怕他會擔心你超越他。雙子座的男子是很有度量的,他喜歡你擁有更寬的視野,更豐富的思想(這樣才能配合他的多變嘛!)不要整天只想跟他風花月的談情說愛,他會覺得很無趣,你可以跟他聊你的事業,談你對人生的感觸,任何新鮮的話題他都會喜歡。
你能與他分享的愈多,你們相處的機會和時間就會愈多。用一種輕鬆淡然的態度和他相處,愛他;但不要企圖綁住他,他反而會願意和你永結同心。你會比你的女朋友們擁有更多的自由,你會有更多的時間作自己想作的事。
嫁給一個雙子座的男人,絕不表示你將註定作個篷頭垢面的家庭主婦。天啊!可以同時享受愛情和自由,你還真是挺幸福的!

Friday, July 10, 2009

The moment and the feeling

Yesterday is the only nite i can sleep tide and well in last 2 weeks

is it because i too tired of the trip to ipoh ?

or i get comfort from u?

aiks

the every moment i think of u, i really few sry and sad

i really cant forgive myself to do those things

i found out that i do a lot a lot of mistake and ffk

i cant found wat is the good things i am

this make me feel helpless~

i feel i lost my direction

i will try to get into right track and the mood to study, scl starting time is near

zz

ysd nite i dream of send u go singapore again
@@
and i check my final exam result

last time i still laugh at u, now i really feel the stress and 'excitements'


ps:thx tting for comforting me along the journey i back langkap and thx good ur dad din c me in the car that nite, this ave ur ass and mine
i promise i wont do those reckless thinggy again

SCARY

Wednesday, July 8, 2009

position

u ask today
wat is my position?

i interpret this question as wat i deserve?
ya u ar right
my trust go down
although not to ground 0 bt near that
haigh
hope i can regain my trust in u ba
really

i feel the way u treat me just like 3 years ago
the vry mo seng de
although friendly bt vry defensive

thx to be friendly with me
i ady vry happy le
this chears me up the whole date
bt the drawback is the damn xp cd
anyway this gv me another valid reason to come ipoh again

yee mun and ikhur talk to me a lot
and they gv tones of usefull advice to me
really thank you u guys =)

Saturday, July 4, 2009

the day at langkap

at langkap le
zzz
still at usual kinda boring here lu

hmm
suddenly thinking off
how long u din view my blog?

i thinking of hint u liao

maybe the day u leave?

bored of ppl ask me y u breakup with her
everyday can heard thousands times lu

argh my mum ask me to close pc
i cant on9 at my home
at cousen home

ok la
time to close i guess =(

maybe gv u a call later?

XD

Friday, June 26, 2009

tired

endless tiredness

tiredness and the learning

Today i stay at scl till 11.30pm

1st time so late

after a cup of teh tarik then bck home

this is tired

while studying

i think that

y i so naive in relationship?

i should cherish wat i had and wat i have

Having a good relationship sure is a myth for me
if i still that naive

I should learn more before i love..

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Dream

was zzz at my fren hse for study
cause i lost my microbiology lab manual =_=
just reach home from study
well

i dream about u last nite

i was said good bye to u
sending u to took bus to singapore

y i dream this?

it is means that i wish u go to singapore so much?



I miss u .......

Monday, June 22, 2009

do I ....

do i not listen to ppl?
do i self centered?
do i not care about other ppl feeling?
do i thinking myself only?
do i not listen to other ppl advice?

pls left a comment when u read this~

Sunday, June 21, 2009

ur present

haha
seem like u love to do ppt slide to me
at 31/12/2007 u also send a ppt slide to me


anyway

thx
i really really really appreciate that
and i am extremely happy to read those word

although bad
i still have to said
u really know me so well
really well until i scare
those ans and reply section is all correct

haha

well
thx again

i need to mention again
i cherish the moment

=)

Saturday, June 20, 2009

birthday

Birthday?
haha

surprise by langkap gang bt i really dont hv mood to celebrate
cause of the damn exam

suddenly i think that what u did to me last year

bt din receive any msg from u till nw, be fair
i am disappointing

i deserve it

i really donno wat i am thinking
my thinking is run uphill and downhill

i really blur and blind

what should i do?

why? how?

the wound

the double edge decision

is hurting me

you, i guess



i Cherish the moment



I wish to restart everything

bt another decision had made and I cant be return

hope the day will come

where i can relief myself


Anyway,
happy birthday to me
once again
happy birthday to me
to my directionless heart

ps: who can help me?

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

fst exam

later will be my 2nd paper fst
hope i can hv a better luck in my paper

haha
this exam really stress


need to settle so many things
personally or emotionally

really GG
anyway i really hv fun
cause the fren among us
although then not with me 24/7
bt they did accompany me and treat me vry well

=)
cheers

Thursday, June 4, 2009

夜晚

Another night at library,
today library is not so cold
but then i was lie on the wall and zzz

final is near yet the stuffs to study are tremendous

stress is increasing
tiredness is increasing

Bt the direction in my heart is missing
when I read what u type (tting)
it remember me
the unrecoverable wound (although i did it to myself)


Stay strong and stand up
Walk to the destiny

Yes
We Can

Sunday, May 31, 2009

quite

haha
this blog really weird for me,
cause i noe, no one will read it due to my laziness of updating lasttime

XD

while this suit me
i am always lazy, dont think stuff deeply, do work for short term

haha
i really wanna shoutout
how do i change for a better me ?


i always talk about my secret to others ppl, donno y i will hvnt tell anyone i update this
hmm
i think i need a quite place to let me write my feeling my sadness, my hope, my view to myself

i reshape this blog as a place to write about myself,
a place for me to write my own wickness
a place for me to shout (virtually)
a place for me to clean myself
and a place for me to find myself

=)


me myself
immature JJ

Monday, May 18, 2009

i am sturburn

i end my relationship last about 2 years smth
today is the 3rd week after this
donno y i still feel hurt when i saw the necklaces that i gave to her when we together
i was cry quitely

this is my fault

i am silly.
i always hurt ppl, yet i din learn for mistake.

be mature
stand up
stand up
stand up

hope, i wont hurt ppl again