Mirror, trust

I need a mirror, to let me c wat am i doing and thinking
To see myself,
I too negative
I really think too much
must calm down and believe
trust

I make myself at the center, I should jump out of the circle and think about u more
haigh
hope i din get u pis st off
i underestimate ur workload le

i really naive

So sry dear master
I really thinking too much

I wil change to view more see more and think NECESSARY stuff
I will catching up with my homework
I promise

Love ya
我需要更多发现爱的眼睛

apologize and forgive , 等待爱

Play this song while u read this post =)



By comparing the way u treat between this week and last week
i think that
u still angry me
u really busy this week

haha
last week u tell me can this can that
but now different geh

anyway i must not blame u
for doing that to me

i did the mistake but still wanna tell u
because i appreciate u, i cherish u
i do not one to lie, because if i lie to u, i believe that the trust i lost will be 100 times more and will lose u forever

for u, i think about future, i invest for our future, pls let the value rise, if not will economic crisis de

i do that wrong thing, because i wanna read the funny thing u mention to me
at that moment i am curious and din think too much that time
ya, then i noe i am wrong
i told u why i did and now i have to wait until u ready to forgive me

anyway i still appretiate u because at this condition u still can talk to me and chat to me(although not much)

it is not an easy thing for both of us
to apologize and to forgive
i apologize that i know u will in serious anger and dislike
u forgive that u know this is a serious act that cross your barrier

frankly, i really worried about next sg trip
i worried i will end up zzz on the street or swimming in the sg river
but one thing i sure is
我将会带来更大的惊喜及感动

i noe u are busy
but that are a lot of way of sending a concern and care which is not time consuming

i can wait
sometime i speak abit too rough cause i really need u that moment, sry for that （sometime siao bai also will also wow right? hehe^^ )
i love u so much
dear master

ps:without food da bai now wanna become siao bai jor. ToT
and i fully responsible for watever i did to u

I pass my hell week

Yea, i just pass my hell weak
which is 4 assignments due one week

this year is el nino time, malaysia should be hot and dry
but donno why this few day night sure got rain and is very cold
every night i need to cover myself with blanket to warm me up
sometime really cold till cant type word zzzzz

must ask yik long come out blow some smoke to warm me up
(use of smoke, kept warm)(dear reader: i still a non smoker, just need the warm air to warm myself up only)
@ @


thx him for given me a couples of advice and the smoke really warm me up, it make me can continue to do my work again

haha

the terminal at the end of another internet port so cold and busy as well
this add bonus point to my coldness
LOL

really need to get warmed
physically and mentally
我想要一个灿烂的笑容^^
来温暖我的心
对你， 我一定抱着最大的热情及温柔

next week work
annotated bibliography and recom assignment
jia you
stand up
JJ
concentrate on stuff that u can manage to

i thinking about this recently
What is apologize?
it's an expression of remorse or guilt over having said or done something that is acknowledged to be hurtful or damaging, and a request for forgiveness

How to apologize?
Step 1: be sincere sorry
Step 2: realize u did a very bad thing
Step 3: realize there is no excuse, excuse is not an apologize
Step 4: apologize by naming the offense u did
Step 5: make amends
Step 6: express ur appreciation if kena reject, be patience (repeat step 1 to5). or gratefull if lucky enough if get forgived.
Step 7: DONT REPEAT THE MISTAKE

ps: recently my only time i feel relax is only when i chat to u.

i reread the GTO again, will not forget the lessons inside again

在每一个有你相伴的夜，不再寂寥冷清^^

i am COLD

我需要根多的温暖好吗？
我真的很冷
从外到心

Critical error

Haigh
why i always do stupid and wrong thingy de leh
at this critical time and always too

Really have to back to the ground where I suppose to
我要为我所造成的结果负责。

chance just like glass
must take care it with heart
just a little bit of careless (i noe is not little bit)
will brake the heart

要好好地把握机会
with heart to think for every aspect, every small small detail

wat i accomplished wat i do not this few days

i finish working
i finish visiting my relative in kl
i finish looking for info to sg
i finish recon and lab hw

pending job
recon DNA assignment
lab report
sci presentation

hoho

this weekend will go bck langkap
hope can solve my passport thingy next week
then can straigh purchase air ticket jor

decide to go sg by air ticket
faster to reach u
save time/ save $ too

nw wanna do homework
next monday got major assignment due
must do fast
jia you o
JJ

天有不测之风云， 人有旦夕祸福

this is a tragedy
this the first time my worrying is diverted to a more more more gan jiong geh stuff

haigh~
nw can only pray
everything to be move smoothly

we must cherish everyone around
cause we donno what will happen tomorrow?
maybe a plane will crash down?
maybe the light bulb will fall on ur hear?

WHO　ＮＯＥ？

ｃｈｅｒｉｓｈ　ｅｖｅｒｙｏｎｅaround u

this tragedy make me love u more

ｂｔｗ　ｔｈｘ　ｆｏｒ　ｔｈｅ　ｈｅｌｐ　ｗｈｉｃｈ　ｈｅｌｐ　ｍｅ　ｇｏｎｅ　ｔｈｒｏｕｇｈ　ｔｈｉｓ

ｈｏｗｅｖｅｒ
ｔｈｅ　ｂａｔｔｌｅ　ｊｕｓｔ　ｓｔａｒｔ

ｌｅｔｓ　ｐｒａｙ
南无阿弥驼佛

Chill down, confident, patience and TRUST

I believe that i am putting more stress to myself then to u
the tiredness, the stressness of working and homework
the nervous, scary, worried, sadness
i cant find u, i din get ur rply, i so miss u, the feeling of loving u
i cant express on u, i cant find u frequent, i cant call u and i cant see u
so i change those force to pressurize myself
i storing all the pressure in my heart
so just now i noe i too xin ji
pls forgive me
pls pls pls
i will be more patience from nw on
i very understand u are busy, fan, just like me in monash
i totally understand ur busyness in making new fren, settle room, buy this, arrange this, get used to new environment
bt i do not have so much activity la
XD
when scl start i predict u will only become busier then nw
studying, discuss lab report,endless assignmentsss, finding study partner,school activity, making new fren, going out to walk walk, endless due date,project bla bla bla bla
tones of thinggs are waiting u to accomplish
but i really need a small small help to release my pressurize gas
this will help me to walk further
no need to talk to me long
no need to frequent sms me
just ur smile when skypee me
just ur some basic concern will do
and i always available to help u
when u need me
wish i can accompany u walk this though journey

family u and study are my most priority thing

come 123
deep breath
come again
deep breath
lai good
deep breath

hahaha
smile =)

trust
believe
patience
confident

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh (gas release sound)
release gas
ha


change negative force to positive
change impossible to possible
change urself
change other ppl
believe ur strength
show them wat ur capable of

YES
I am JJ ^^
must learn patience TODAY and FOREVER
i also promise that wont force myself and u too

the day will come
I believe
where i fall i shall rise

ps: u are making me more miss u
if u can spare some time with me,
maybe will be better?
since i can more understand ur live nw
then less worried
but i noe now u still busy
take ur time ma
XD
i dont mind waiting
da ben dan

dont dump dog on the street
very pity de
pls feed them with care and with love
^^

OK now continue doing DNA recombinent essay

I miss u and love u too
good nite=)
where my love can reach u

You are my Everything

Instruction before read: Please play the video while u read this
u can pause the song in my blog^^ pls continue it later o



故事裡的 起承轉合 有一些忘記
做了多少錯誤的選擇

原來波折 才暗示著 該走的方向
指引你我來到這一刻

就算 別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

Cause You're My Everything
就一個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起
你的愛是我的 Everything

遼闊天際 求和相遇 有多少機率
多少煙火 墜落無痕跡

因為幸福 沒有捷徑 難免要繞道
不被看好 越是要走到

就算別人都說 我們沒什麼出息
不可能會這樣輕易放棄

你就是 Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

Cause You're My Everything
就這個原因 讓我勇敢面對這個世界
想給你 Everything
不管用多少個明天 永遠從此刻開始算起

你就是 Everything
就如這個原因 我會永遠記住這種感覺
想給你 Everything
隻要你說一聲願意 所有的未來才有意義
你的愛是我的 Everything

self motivate

this is the second day i am working
this job is bored
XD
anyway it is quite well paid and not vry tough job
need to work from 6pm to 4 am
zz
then wake up need to do homework jor
Tuesday due DNArecombinent assignment table + essay

recent me

need a motive force to push me to the target
bt my mind always get disturbed
心如乱麻 越理更乱

i rally understand this phrase nw
即陷情丝 越陷越深

really need something to calm myself down
dont force too much
calm down calm down calm down
she will be there if she one to be there
scare and worried is useless

patience
concentrate ur job
concentrate ur work
cheers up

stand up and wake up
where i fall i shall rise!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha

waiting and patience

waiting patience waiting patience waiting patience
hmm~
thats wat i need

wish u can contact me when u free
i always there ~ unless lab

well thats it

Home again
XD yesterday really a siao nite
but i did try my very best for you
anyway
although it is not the best scenario bt it isn't that bad either

haha
time passing very fast, since we resume normal conversation it is about one the month thingg
bt a lof of things i did were either rare or i nvr did before
haha

i did watever i can
bt a lot of things are not going very smooth
my planning skill still not good and yet to be improved

nw u at sg bor jor
haha
i choose to trust u and belive in u
bt wat is most importance is i will respect, analyze and listen to ur opinion and ur words

hope this can maintain our currently erm how to said, 'dog and master' relationship. rise and drop depends on the future le

no matter wat, changes is a must although it is not a easy task but think carefully it is not that hard
when u do thing think more, do more and concentrate more
thats it
so easy

haha
i really miss u nw bt i donno how to contact u
bt i noe u ar in a vry busy mood
maybe cleaning room ?
briefing?
or stuck in sg traffic service
anyway
i got faith on u

to be a dog, one of the importance rule is loyalty
i will not eat other aunthy geh meat bone no matter how starve i am
so pls, sayang me and feed me with mum mum
ok?

love u so much
miss u a lot

time to bck to study
haha
maybe go bck langkap this weekend?
long time no bck le
miss home
go ipoh so much time bt din bck home
i really a bad son
daddy, mummy sry bt i noe u all will support me to do this
mum u told me u like swit wei a lot right?
me too
and i am looking forward with it

pls bear with me
we walk together ba
for the future
a better day will come so do our relationship